Created: March 2023
Dimensions: 6.88″ x 10.5″/2064px x 3150px at 300 dpi
Created with: Procreate
First Shared: on Patreon
For Day Off, I used
- Dry Ink, Smoother – a modified version of Dry Ink that I tweaked to be a bit smoother, larger, and to have the ending tip blunter
- Blunt – a modified version of Studio Pen that I tweaked to have a blunter tip and larger size
- Blushy by Magdalina Dianova
Blunt was used for the panel lines, speech bubbles, and for coloring, and Dry Ink, Smoother was used for the line art. Blushy was used for the steam coming out of the mug in the title.
The font is my own handwriting that I converted into a font using Calligraphr.
I have a problem with resting. It’s hard for me.
I’m 1,000% certain this is not just a me thing based on how often I see people talking about their struggle with this, too, especially in the art and disabled community.
There are a lot of factors that go into creating this feeling, and for me, I know it’s a product of internalized ableism mixed in with a heavy dose of ADHD boredom when trying to rest and the justified fear of forgetting what I was working on and missing something important. I also just don’t like stopping in the middle of a project until it’s done because I’m often in a state of flow that feels really nice.
There’s also, of course, the genuine concern about not being able to make money as a creator. It’s uncomfortable to admit, but I currently don’t have any income of my own as I make this content. I just returned from a multi-year hiatus due to COVID and other issues, and the algorithms are punishing me brutally for it. So if I don’t make things to get people’s attention and try to bring people to my shop, my Patreon, etc., then nothing will change. And I need things to change! lol
I made this comic during the weeks before my partner and I went on a trip to Maryland to scout out a potential new home, and I was busy drafting and preparing a lot of blog, Patreon, and social media posts ahead of time to avoid falling behind my plans. This was also when I started to return to social media full time for work AND just a few weeks before reopening the shop for May and preparing all of that.
As you can see, the pressure adds up 😂
So I made this comic to gently poke fun at myself and remind myself to try to chill tf out while connecting with others who feel the same lol Because at the end of the day, I’m human, I need to rest– especially as a disabled human.
The Design Process
I was thinking about the idea of feeling absorbed by work, and the memory of “fruit salads” from my childhood came to mind. For those unfamiliar, these are desserts made of gelatin (Jello) with bits of fruit (usually canned) added into them. Sounds nothing like actual salad, right? lol
Here’s a look at the pencils/brainstorming phase. As usual, very loose, very simple, lots of notes scribbled all over lol
The fruit encapsulated by the wiggling jello kinda reminded me of an amoeba*, too, and I thought it would be funny to show the feeling of these tasks as being absorbed by the amoeba-jello-work creature with me trying desperately to ignore the very un-ignorable monstrosity creeping up behind me.
*I have watched too many episodes of Monsters Inside Me, and once I saw an episode featuring a person who was killed by a brain-eating amoeba that got up the person’s nose while swimming in a lake. It hit a little too close to home because I looked and realized that it was a lake WHERE I HAD BEEN TO as a kid. That was enough for me to become terrified of amoebas– a microscopic being that I have no real business being afraid of as someone who actively avoids swimming in natural bodies of water lol
And here are are the inks. I’m not gonna lie, I forgot to save a copy of the inks when I made them, so I just went back and hid all the color layers on the final comic and saved the line art 😂 But that is pretty much what line art is, so I’m not beating myself up about it lol
It was also fun to use this comic as a way to push back against my overworking tendencies off the page, too, because this forced me to just be okay with a simple concept that didn’t require redrawing every single thing with impeccable detail (what even is that in comics?? why do I self-impose all of this?? lol). Instead, I just reused the same image and added minor adjustments here and there.
And you know what? I had fun!
I want to do more like this in the future and also practice not being such a perfectionist about things. I don’t judge other people for these kinds of helpful tricks; in fact, it’s the opposite, I think it’s so cool and clever, and I love that they’ve found ways to make work easier for themselves! So why the hell do I judge myself so differently and make things harder for myself?
Anywho, that’s a peek into the thoughts that went into this and into my very anxious mind 😂
I referenced this image of a green fruits and veggie jello salad from Sewing Our Sanity to make the comic. I can only imagine what people who have never heard of this dish before are thinking when they see it for the first time 😂
And please know, I’m not trying to target this person in particular or make fun of them– I’m making fun of all of us white people who have made and/or eaten this because it genuinely is a very strange thing to make and consume. I have to admit that I’ve never had the fruits and vegetable version of this (and would actively avoid it lol), but I’ve had the fruit one and enjoyed it as a kid.
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